why must i think the world is wrong

we are asked to think of things the world does wrong.

why?

why do we spend our time together

talking about a outside nebulous thing. and try to say "the world" is one thing

the world is ENDLESS.

and even then.

it is within I feel

it is within that I can affect

talking bad about others,

what good does it do?

I am here to change, so let me

I am not here to try and bring those who are different down.

maybe that's my frustration.

or what if it's

that it's riskier

to try to assume something about a huge group,

but if you work individually, the wrong assumptions are lessened.

and things can actually change.

when we talk about errors or problems in "the world" we are reinforced in our place of assumed

or taught

superiority

she says the world asks women

"don't you feel less than men because you don't have the priesthood"

she says

"no never, we don't!"

but

sometimes I do feel less than men

maybe I shouldn't

but the system is hard.

hard to love

it can challenge my faith going to institute,

and now I'm feeling squashed.

but isn't this,

why I come?

I want a challenge to stir me from my idle belief

I need my faith active

so I need missteps by others and myself to keep me

chasing

hungering

and

trying.

learning,

I want to do it.

but my motivation to do so

is sparked

by my squashed feeling.

from placing myself in spaces where

what I learn and how I feel

come into conflict.

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why do we every time say what are the things against the world,

its within I feel,

that is what i can do

talking bad about others.

what good does it do?

i am here to change, so let me.

i am not here to try and bring those who are different down.

maybe it scares me because individual is safe, if we focus on humility we work individually

if we talk about errors or problems in the world, we are reinforced in our place of assumed or taught superiority

sometimes i do feel less than men,

maybe i shouldn't but the system is hard.

hard to love

it can challenge my faith going to institute,

and now i'm feeling hurt,

but isn't this why I come,

i want a challenge

to stir me from my idle belief

i need it active,

so i need the errors of others and myself to keep me chasing, hungering and trying.

learning,

i want to do it,

but my motivation is coming from confusion.

putting myself in situations where my feelings and what i'm learning come in conflict.