lost

and the truth is

if im honest with myself

i don’t know my favorite color

why does that make me feel lost

i’ve memorized my answer

dark dark dark purple

like cosmic

but i think i just like the word purple

am i lost

only realized i might be

when someone

said you should find ways to be surrounded by your favorite color

i own like 2 purple things

and i don’t want more

i don’t wear purple

if i have a purple option

i doubt i’d choose it over white or black

feels like a broken promise

to realize

you might not have a favorite color